yeah. this is where i’ll talk about the stuff i can’t talk about with friends or people i know, because you just can’t do that sort of thing.
a little bit about me: i’m in my 30s, in a stable relationship, once married, once divorced. i cheated on my ex-husband with a really nice guy who reminded me of the kind of person my ex used to be, only kinder and more thoughtful. but you can’t date someone for who you want someone else to be, so needless to say that didn’t work out. pity, because he was a nice guy.
i work a lot.
i would like to have a lot more sex, but it just isn’t working out that way. i’m thinking of going outside my relationship for sex.
it’s gotten so bad that the past few weeks, i’m talking a lot more with guys i know in that capacity and basically having cybersex with them because i’ve got all this pent up energy. it’s gotten to where i’m chatting with two guys a night, one in the first half and a different guy in the second half. i feel kind of like a phone sex operator, except that i actually want to sleep with these guys.
one is someone i used to date in college. he’s in a steady relationship too, and in a similar position as me in terms of being ambivalent about getting married.
one is someone i fooled around with (but didn’t sleep with) on some vegas trip ages ago. he’s also in a steady relationship.
one is someone i sort of work with (but not really) overseas. like the other two, he is also in a stable, happy relationship.
and me? i’m seeing a great guy. i’ve met his parents, he’s met mine, although they haven’t met each other. this is the kind of thing where we could get married and have kids and be happy growing old with each other in 20 years if i can survive the shortage of excitement (sexual and otherwise) in the meantime.
so enough about the background.